I could have sworn he was right beside me; for years he always had been. Now he's gone. I don't rightly know what it was that drove us apart. Was it my hair or my taste in music? Was I too clingy or maybe not affectionate enough? Something changed. I went from being the apple… Continue reading There and Gone
The lies we tell ourselves are, by far, the most insidious and wicked. For years, I told myself that I would never be enough. In truth, I am not only enough, but I may be too much for some people. Exuberance, in all things, flows through my blood and seeps out my pores. I dance.… Continue reading The lies we tell ourselves
I'm thinking about it again. The thoughts don't scare me like they used to. I used to worry about it, but now I think I'm excited. If I let the darkness in, will the light within me come rushing out? Or, will it be consumed? Will my final act before my descent into the coming… Continue reading The Darkness
Stop hitting yourself. Be patient with yourself. You wouldn’t get this upset with someone else just starting out, why do you do this to yourself? Stop hitting yourself. Be kind to yourself. You would never say the things you say to yourself to or about someone else. Why is it okay to belittle yourself? Stop… Continue reading Stop Hitting Yourself
I find myself asking myself what if things go wrong at least a few dozen times a day. On bad days, my imagination runs away with the idea- dreaming up all the impossible and improbable ways in which things could go wrong. Theses thoughts steal the air from my lungs and leave me gasping. What… Continue reading What if things go well?
I've been asked by several people in my offline life why I haven't posted more on here. The short answer is that I've been tired. The long answer is that by tired my mean I've had several low functioning days due to my severe Bipolar disorder. A part of my wanted to keep this private,… Continue reading My Mental Health